Womanhood and Everything in Between

...is very hard. As in very very hard. I don't know where I went wrong. Angela seems to grow away from the values that we are teaching her. She's becoming unmanageable. This morning, her yaya told me that the reason why she doesn't go with us to church is because she doesn't believe in God. Whoa! That hit me...hard! =( I have no idea where she got that. I don't know who taught her that, whoever you are, I'll deal with you soon. But first, I have to do something with my daughter. Although she's normal most of the time, she scares the hell out of me when her tantrums kick in. That's when she becomes unruly. She would (sometimes) shout, call people names, throw everything away, and cry like there's-no-tomorrow. Oh, she's no evil. She's still my angel sent from heaven. I usually ignore her during these times. I read somewhere that throwing our fit of temper to them while they are out of control would only make everything worse. True mga mare,...

We have our fair share of burdens. Lately we have been through a financial crisis...again. And there have been times that I questioned God's existence. My faith have suffered tremendously. But I'm glad I have survived. My faith has never been this strong. I'm back on track! Today's homily is about accepting life's trials and having enough faith in Him. Sabi ni Father, walang tao ang hindi nakakaranas ng mga problema. True enough. Nobody raised their hands when the priest asked kung sino ang hindi pa nakaranas ng paghihirap. A part of me was hoping that somebody was spared of this world's cruelty but I was also half hoping that we're all in the same boat. Don't get me wrong mga mare. Hindi ko ipinagdarasal na sana lahat tayo may problema. Knowing so kasi, it would be a consolation to us that we're all have our own problems. Minsan kasi akala natin unfair lang ang buhay satin, iniisip natin tayo lang ang may problema. It is harder for us to resolve a...

I can't deny how much addicted I was in slam books during my younger years. I love answering the questions kahit paulit paulit lang naman. I can vividly remember how my mom punished me for answering the question, "Course?" with "sexual intercourse" at a very young age. Ginaya ko lang naman kasi talaga yun sa sagot ng kaibigan ko na nabasa ko sa ibang slam book. Promise. We had a very serious talk after that. Hehe. Don't worry mga mare, I learned my lesson. Lol! I first heard this Alphabet Meme from Denise of  Bebengisms  when she lovingly answered all the questions, and from then on I crossed my fingers and hoped that someone would tag me as well. Sosyal na slam book. Thanks to Krisna for remembering me.  And thanks to Elaine of The Miss Elaine-ous Life  for reviving this Old School way of Blogging. Now brace yourselves for my answers, I hope you'll have fun. A. Attached or Single? Very much attached and will forever be to the best father of my ...

Dear Bhe, I know marrying me has been the biggest decision you've ever made in your life, let's spare my readers with the drama behind our love story, and I'll be forever grateful to you for being the man who completed me. Each day that I spend with you, I get to know better the man that I married. You're sweet (in your own way), loving, hardworking, funny (whenever with family), serious (to others) and the ultimate jack-of-all-trades (that others may not know). Everyday you make me fall in love over and over again. You are the perfect husband to me. And you are the greatest father to our children. No doubt Angela and Aerin seems perfectly happy in your arms. You have no idea how many tears I've shed whenever I see them laughing their hearts out with your funny stories. I just knew I made the right decision when I marry you. We will have more petty fights in the next years to come, but I am pretty much secure that we will always end up kissing away the issue o...

Tell me, pabayang nanay ba ako? I feel really sad today. Babay Aerin is sick again. It started with a fever last Sunday. I thought dahil lang sa bagong ngipin na lumalabas. It was accompanied with LBM. She was normal. Makulit, bungisngis at magana pa rin kumain. Yesterday she still has fever. Just the same, bibo pa rin. Until this morning. Bigla syang tumamlay. I didn't come to work kasi gusto ko na syang dalhin sa doctor. The doctor told us that it might be tigdas hangin kasi meron ng konting rashes sa likod. The fever might last until tomorrow. Nakakapraning lang kasi her fever went as high as 40deg. Sana tonight bumaba na temperature nya. Please pray for my daughter mga mare. Nakakaawa na kasi sya. Hindi na nya ma-meet yung desired weight nya kasi kagagaling lang nya sa sakit tapos eto na naman. Hayyy. *if there are typo errors, please bear with me today, I'm mobile blogging plus I'm looking after my sick daughter.

I was not in search of a potential lover when I met R. I was actually mending a broken heart that time. Our meeting was as casual as it can be. We were both on site, waiting for the cell site to be up and ok. I was checking the radio signals on my laptop and he was like 100m away from me on his usual get-up of polo shirt, denim pants and a pair of rubber shoes. Oh, I forgot, he's wearing his cap and sunglasses. While I was wearing my pambahay-pwede-nang-pang-site wardrobe. I am mostly one of the boys when I am doing fieldworks. I am not the kikay type. And he found me sexy, sabi nya. Buti na lang. =) If bad words could kill, he died long ago. We were not the best of friends because he's the typical guy, an asshole. (No offense meant, guys! Peace! *Wink) On a seniority level, he was my boss. He was working for our client and we were their contractors. Most of the time, I was on the waiting line. That went on for months. Something magical happened one evening when most of my ...

Let's dedicated this month of June to all father's out there. =) Advance Happy Father's Day, Bhe! Excited lang ako. Hehe.

Oh, How I love Sundays! =) Sinanay kami ng father ko that Sunday is Family Day. And gusto ko rin na yan ang makagawian ng family ko. Bawal mag schedule ng personal na lakad ang sinuman samin. Noong una, hindi ko na-appreciate yun. Sabi ko pa sa isip ko, ang KJ talaga ni Papa. But now that I have my own family, very much appreciated na. =) We started the day with a mass. Kami na lang dalawa ni R ang nagsisimba ngayon. Dati kasi nung sinasama samin yung dalawang bagets, hindi rin namin maintindihan ang homily. Minsan kasi, R ended up hearing the mass outside the church kasi nagliligalig na yung dalawang bata sa loob. Siguro kapag malaki na sila at nakakaintindi na ng sermon ni Father, pwede na silang sumama. Tama ba ako mga mare? I can always teach them the Word of God at home. At hindi ko naman kinakalimutan yun. And Angela's new school is a Catholic School. So, I guess, katuwang ko na ang mga teachers nya sa pagpapakilala kay God. =) We had laing with hipon and fried tilapya fo...

After those two weird house helpers that we had, we're on our 4th set of newly hired house helpers. Kalowka lang! Almost 1 month din kaming naghanap ng ipapalit dun sa dalawa. And then one of our former katulong in Bicol recommended her cousin. We took her. I thought I found the one! Ok sya. As in malinis. marunong magluto. Hindi tamad. After a month of working with us, she asked if she can go home to Bicol to attend a reunion and her town fiesta. (Susme! Ganyan na po talaga sila ngayon. Bawal sila umabsent sa fiesta.) I agreed for a 3-day vacation. Gave her money and off she went. (I was expecting this.) On the day that she's supposedly coming back to Cavite, she texted me that a relative was stabbed and she needed to stay longer. (I know, right?) Mabait na ako to accept her once again when she called me after 3 weeks. Sabi nya, she'll bring her sister na rin since I asked her naman talaga to look for her makakasama sa bahay. Partida yan, maliit lang ang bahay namin. Pero ...

Good thing that Angela's classes will start on June 17 pa. We haven't bought her anything pa, well except for her shoes and bag. She'll be using her old bag na lang kasi hindi pa naman sira. Sayang ang money. Hehe. I bought her shoes early this summer when a mall near our place went on sale. Di ba? We need to be practical. =) Maybe we'll head to the mall this weekend to complete her school requirements. I am a little uncomfortable with the school service though. Did you guys feel this, too? Or baka hindi lang ako sanay na ipagkatiwala yung anak ko sa ibang tao. Although malapit lang naman yung school sa bahay, 5-minute drive I suppose. And another consolation is, they won't pass any major highway. Praning lang talaga akong nanay, 'no? OA lang. Anyway, I will ask the owner if I can send a yaya with her on her 1st week. Para alam ko rin kung saan ang ikot ng service. Right, I'll ask her tonight. =) One more problem I am facing right now is, Angela's no...

I was in deep thoughts yesterday (naks!), thinking why my posts became few and far between. I had the answer this morning while I was in a bus holding on to my dear life as the bus driver made his way like a crazy snake on the busy highway, EDSA. I was pushing myself too much pala. I was trying so hard to be a blogger that I am not. Don't get me wrong mga mare. I love how the other bloggers manage to make kwento of every tidbits of their lives. And I want that, too. Pero kahit madaldal ako in real life, I find it hard to put into words everything I have in mind. But I'm working on it. I dream of the mouth-watering foods that food bloggers post every now and then. But I can't be a foodie blogger. That's it. Admitted! I can't snap pictures everytime we dine out. I lack the passion for food photography. And I only have two adjectives to describe the food I eat, (1) masarap and (2) hindi masarap. =) I tried, and I failed. But I'm still going to try some more. Ju...