Jan 7, 2014

I will be a BETTER daughter

Last Sunday night, while the Little Girl curls beside me because of her high fever, I had a bad moment with my mom. Entirely my fault. I was supposed to put "I am BAD" as the title of this post but decided to stay positive. Hence, I will be BETTER, sounded more appropriate.

As I have (always) mentioned in my previous posts, I am not totally cool. Way back when I was younger, my mom shed a lot of tears because of hard-headed me. I know I have given her enough reasons to give up on me but she didn't. Because she loves me. And I can't thank her enough.

We had a lot of arguments even before. Because my mom is always emotional and sensitive, during our fights I tend to become louder. Just because I wanted her to hear me out, I would deliberately put on a higher tone and in an annoying kind of way. All through these fights, I would endlessly point out her weaknesses without even noticing mine. I would always tell her that all I want is to see her happy yet I am the only reason of her crying. All these occurred to me last Sunday. I felt ashamed of myself. I am hurting the only person I know who will stick with me no matter what. I am unintentionally hurting the woman whose love for me is unconditional. Oh Lord, forgive me! I prayed and prayed that night that mom won't give up yet because this time, I really really wanted to make it up to her. 

As this realization sinked in to me, I want to be BETTER. I'd like to be the best daughter, but I'll start with being a better one. I want my mom to feel proud of herself for raising me up. I know our differences are inevitable, but those aren't enough reasons for me to hurt my mom some more. I have a lot to fix. A lot. But I know I'm doing good already because I am learning to accept my mistakes. 

I am quite certain that I can only be a better mother once I became a better daughter. 

Mama, I know you haven't forgiven me yet. Don't. At least not yet. I want to deserve it this time. Let me be a better daughter. I promise you I will.

I love you from the bottom of my heart.

Jan 6, 2014

Sibling Love

A few days ago, I have mentioned how Ate seems to feel a little jealous of her baby sister. But I knew it was all normal. Because their love for each other is enormous that I don't have to worry. And then I was able to capture this,

Oh, so sweet!

I've posted this photo in my FB account and I have gathered tons of "like". Surely, they look adorable. I can't help but stare at this photo and feel grateful. Thank you, Lord for the love!

I'm looking forward to more wonderful years with these two!

Love love love for 2014!

Jan 2, 2014

Welcome, 2014!!

Despite being exhausted for the past few days because I have no househelp, I still want to stay positive in welcoming 2014.

But before anything else, I would like to thank my mom endlessly for being here with us to celebrate the holidays and to help us look after the kids. Mom, I haven't said this to you for quite some time now, thank you from the bottom of my heart and I super duper love you. I couldn't pull this off if it weren't for you. :)

So, as I was saying, I wanted to be more positive this 2014. To start with, let's look back to the year that has been and the learnings I gained.

1. It's hard to design a house (that's what the hubby does, we are in construction business) and it's even harder if it's your own. But it is full of fun. From choosing colors down to floor tiles. And be prepared financially because even if you set a certain budget, you will surely go overboard especially if you are like us, compulsive shopper.

2. Stay calm when kids get sick. We've been in and out of the hospitals this year and panicking is not good. I know it's easier said than done but believe me, it never helps. Plus, it helps to be familiar with the symptoms. It could somehow ease the mind to know that you are in control of the situation. Been there, done that.

3. Marriage will always be tested. It won't always be happy memories. It is going to be tough but make sure to always communicate so it won't get big. Listen to what he has to say and likewise. And it sure doesn't hurt to accept one's fault.

4. Laughter is and will always be the best medicine. Problems? Laugh it off. Always remember that we have a bigger God up there.

5. Save and be prepared. This is something that I should have done ages ago. Save more and spend less, that's my mantra this year.

6. Life isn't always fair. There would be good times and there will be tough times. But what really matter is how you handle things. At some point, you might feel like giving up, that's normal. But make sure to stand up and stand firm. The sun shines after the storm. Don't worry. 

With all these with me, I'm pretty sure 2014 will be better. 

Let's do this! :)

Thank you, Lord!

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2013: The Year That Has Been


Generally speaking, the past year has been very good to me and my family. We moved in to our very first abode early this year. We bought another car this year, too. We made new friends with our awesome neighbors. Angela had adjusted pretty well with her new school. Our construction business flourished this year as well. Although we have let go of bad some clients, we also have welcomed new ones. I have successfully maintained this blog even if for some time I have been MIA. This humble space will be turning a year in old in a few days. Woohooo!! No no no, I am not yet a certified blogger. I must say that I have not yet fully committed myself in blogging since most of the time, I lack in words. Alam nyo yun, whenever I start to type down all my kwentos, suddenly my mind would go blank. All the freakin' time! But still, I will try harder this year. I'll try. Because I really wanted to make sense in this blogging world.

While trials and petty issues are inevitable, we have conquered all and survived! The two kids have been in and out of the hospitals but both are so healthy now. Our relationship as husband and wife have been tested over and over this year (nothing serious guys, just petty issues, alam nyo na yan mga mare =)) and we're learning to keep our love alive. And I'm happy to say that we have learned a lot from all those hardships and difficulties. That's what matters, right?

But still, there's so much to thank for than to complain. There's a lot to be grateful about than to whine. That's part of my learning in the past year, to look at the beautiful things rather than be grumpy about the what-not. Thank you Lord for the wonderful 2013, from the bottom of my heart. =)

2013, It's a WRAP!

WELCOME 2014!!! =)

Let's do this mga mare. Let's be fiercer and tougher than our problems. Let's be happier and more positive this year. Let's keep the faith!